I can’t work out whether I am more or less body confident than I was pre-baby. I think I am more confident, well, most of the time. My body is definitely different, I have bigger boobs and a saggier belly. My legs are much the same size wise but I have faint stretch marks on my thighs, and my upper arms are still a bit flabby too. I wish I had put less weight on when I was pregnant, but hey, you live and learn right? I actually only weigh around half a stone more than I did when I got pregnant in fact, I just look different! I now wear jeans and tops to cover up my flabbier-than-before middle (and make it easier to breastfeed), whereas pre-baby jeans or trousers never graced my legs at all! How things change!
It’s at this time of year when I start to feel more aware of my body. Today I walked past someone in town with her baby in a buggy, wearing a crop top and shorter than short shorts. She had an awesome figure. I was wearing shorts too, but mine were linen and on the longer side, and I had a sensible cotton top on from next. I felt very middle aged. I then had a strict word with myself, she was in early late teens or early twenties. I am 30, it’s no wonder I didn’t spring back into shape, and I wasn’t as slim as she was in the first place!
Till late spring I was happy in my jeans and jumpers. But not only is there more on display to compare myself too in the summer, but it’s bloody hot in case you hadn’t noticed! I’d love to be wearing next to nothing but just don’t have the confidence to do so. Plus if I wear shorter-than-short shorts my thighs would rub together and cause me great discomfort! I also get under-boob sweat now I actually have boobs… but do I care enough to do anything about it? No, not really. I figure that at some point I’ll be pregnant again and undo all my hard work. Although I do plan on not putting on as much weight as I did with Athena, that’s for sure!
Until this week with it’s ridiculous weather I have been keeping my upper arms covered, annoyed at how flabby my bingo wings are, but I have decided to go with the flow, it’s too hot to keep my pits ensconced in fabric! Remember I said I did a sneaky Asos order last Sunday? This is one of two sleeveless dresses I bought. So here I am, pale and pasty upper arms and all!
Origami print Dress: Asos. Shoes: Mel (they’re made of rubber and are scented, seriously weird but they were reduced to £10 in Debenhams! I plan to use them as beach shoes mainly!)
This time 3 years ago I would have a lovely glowing tan, acquired from every-other day sessions on a sun bed. I always like a tan made my podgy belly and wobbly thighs look better than their natural flour-white appearance. Now, I am happy (Well, happier) to head out baring my milk-white legs for all to see, sometimes I don’t even shave them when I probably should! I guess I am more body confident now! After all, I think i’m the only one who gives a damn, and I wish I could tell my 20 year old self that!
Ps: This isn’t a ploy to get people to tell me I have nothing to worry about!
How has your opinion of your body changed over the years?